the 9th Week Break, in Spring

First of all, happy first day of Spring and Palm Sunday.  This marks the end of an absolutely wonderful spring break.

w/ Emily behind the camera

At the beginning of the break, those three friends I mentioned last week came to visit, and what a wonderful time we had.  Catching up on all the crazy life happenings... touring Liberty... giggling uncontrollably over Bad Lip Reading songs (such as this classic)... watching both Star Trek movies (sorry, Karis, but Star Wars still has my heart)... going ice skating... coloring our hair pink and blue with hair chalk... handling real human lungs (thanks, Crystal, my sister and science nerd)... singing some very bad karaoke... well, you get the gist of it. ;)

Needless to say, their visit was such a fun way to start off the break.

The rest of the week wasn't nearly as eventful as those first three days, but it was still amazing and relaxing and fun.  The fam and I watched some good oldies (The Sound of Music truly is a masterpiece)... I did plenty of sewing on that shirt dress I'm making (it's almost done!)... I went shopping for fabric and clothes (both trips were quite successful)... I got to read for PLEASURE for the first time since Christmas break... and, of course, I did get some homework done. ;)

But, alas, school and work begin again tomorrow.  I'm okay with that though.

I'm ready to finish freshman year out strong.  I'm ready to finish working on the costumes for Beauty and the Beast and see the final result.  I'm ready to make the apparel project in sewing class (I'm making a winter coat which I'm SO excited about because I've been wanting to make on for ages).  I'm ready to give some more speeches.  I'm ready to continue learning about personal finance, worldview, and technology.  I'm ready to write the script for my short film.  I'm ready to work hard in school and my job, as something done unto the Lord, and not for men.

Mhmm, I'm so ready for this next half of the semester.

How was your spring break though?  Or have you had it yet?  Happy it's Spring? (I AM) :)

Halfway Finished with College Semester 2.0

Guess who's on Spring Break????

DIS GIRL.

And it's a good thing too, because this week was a doozy.  I had to present my first big speech in Communications class, an "argument of fact."  So I chose to argue the conspiracy theory that Obama is a terrorist/terrorist sympathizer.  It was fabulous...ly hilarious.

I also had two midterms (which both ended up being super easy), for Communications and Biblical Worldview 2.  Studying for those took some time, though.  Add to that work and homework, and I was maxed out for busyness.  So, it's wonderful that break is finally here and I'll be able to chillax a bit. ;)

At the costume shop, we're currently in the thick of building costumes for Beauty and the Beast!  Everything is very hush hush, but what I can say, is that the costume I've been helping with, for Madame de la Grande Bouche (in other words, the wardrobe) was just completed on Friday, and it looks pretty cool. ;)

But what I'm really excited about for Spring Break, is that three of my best friends from Tennessee are coming up to visit over the weekend!  It feels like I haven't seen them in ages, though it's only been a few months.  It's going to be so much fun to show them around my new hometown and Liberty.  And speaking of which -- they're arriving today!  So, I must keep this post short and sweet, and I'm going to go prep for their arrival... ;)

Oh also this happened this week and it broke my ability to even.  Literally no words to express how stinkin' excited I am for this movie.

Until next week, my dear friends!  I apologize that the past few posts haven't been very interesting -- I'm hoping to get up a fun post about a recent sewing project for next week. :)

Sick in the Seventh Week

This week, I came down with a cold.  And when I get sick, I have this bad tendency of getting 100% sick.  So, I skipped three days of classes and work, and slept.  This helped me get over the worst of it, but now I get to suffer through the tail end of it... not fun.

While all this is going on, homework has kind of piled up.  So I've been trying not to stress over that, and instead focus on the fact that I only have one more week to get through before Spring break is here, and I will finally have some room to breathe.  Continued prayers for me would be so, so appreciated, if you think of it.

Thanks for letting me have a little pity party there.  But now I need to practice a speech, so I'll keep this post short and sweet, and leave you with these terrible quality photos (thank you, dumb phone) from the past few months, taken around various places on campus -- entitled, "Feat. My Feet." ;)

Week 6 (x3) Equals 18 Years

Hello once again, my friends.

This week was special, because Wednesday was my 18th birthday.

thank you tom, thanks

And it was absolutely wonderful.  I had sewing and screenwriting class, in between which I read Nehemiah (one of my favorite books of the Old Testament because Nehemiah was an awesome guy) and had lunch by myself.  Then I had work until 6, and when I got home, my family threw me a mini party with just us. We had Paleo hotdogs, sweet potato chips, and roasted brussels sprouts for dinner (ah it was amazing - don't judge me please), and then my older sister Alissa, for dessert, arranged a fruit platter like Cap's shield.  It was nothing less than beautiful, and made me very happy, needless to say.

Then I got to open my presentssss (always fun hehehe), one of which was a gorgeous daffodil plant (a tradition for my birthday, because they always bloomed during it when we lived in GA).  My second older sister Crystal gave me the game "Catch Phrase" - Star Wars edition!!  So, it's all words and phrases relating to the Star Wars universe, and the game itself is shaped as the Millennium Falcon.  Yes, it was way too awesome, and I might have fangirled in a very un-adult way when I saw it... ;)  So we played that for quite a while, and it was so much fun.

Then we all settled down and watched Jurassic World, for the first time for everyone in the fam except me.  The second viewing made me realize just how much I really love that movie.  Epic dinosaurs, cool Chris Pratt, dear Blue running to save everyone, the absolute presh ending... ahh it is just such a crazy, stressful, fun experience to watch and makes me so happy.  I just love it.  I really do. #whosaysgirlscantlikeactionfilms

You know, I hate to end this post so soon, but I've got a speech outline to write that's due day after next, and I really need to get crackin'.  Hey, if you think of it, would you mind praying for me?  For that speech, but also for my health - I'm in a flare with my crohn's currently which I just can't seem to get out of, aaaand I think I'm coming down with a cold, to top it all off.  Thank you so much, I so appreciate it.  I've told you before how blessed I feel that you're in my life, right?  Well, if not, I'm saying it now.  I feel so blessed that you're in my life.

In the words of Bilbo, "Alas, [eighteen] years is far too short a time to spend among such excellent and admirable people."

♡ you all. 

Finding the Spiritual in 5 TØP Songs

I hope you won't mind that I'm deviating from the uuz of "what happened this week" posts, and that you will enjoy this introspective post concerning twenty one pilots instead...

Last May, twenty one pilots happened (again), and, thanks to Faith, I caught on to their undefinable music and joined the clique. So, today, I'd like to share five (in honor of the fifth week of my 2nd semester of college) of my favorite twenty one pilots songs, and the underlying, spiritual nuances that make these songs mean so much to me.  I hope you're encouraged by the following words as much as I always am.

1. Addict With a Pen.

Ever since the very first time I heard it, I recognized this song had captured the essence of my soul, the very essence of my relationship with my maker. Failure, realization, recommission. Void, craving, fulfillment. Pain, balm, healing. A cycle that can only truly be completed in death, the ending to our life of struggle and the beginning of our life of peace.

I try desperately to run through the sand

As I hold the water

In the palm of my hand

Cause it's all that I have

And it's all that I need and

The waves of the water

Mean nothing to me

But I try my best

And all that I can to

Hold tightly onto

What's left in my hand

But no matter how

How tightly I will strain

The sand will slow me down

And the water will drain

I'm just being dramatic

In fact,

I'm only at it again

As an addict with a pen

Who's addicted to the wind

As it blows me back and forth

Mindless, spineless, and pretend

Of course I'll be here again

See you tomorrow

But it's the end of today

End of my ways

As a walking denial

My trial was filed as a crazy

Suicidal head case

But you specialize in dying

You hear me screaming

Father

And I'm lying here just crying

So wash me with your water.

2. March to the Sea.

It wasn't until more recently that it spoke to me -- in the context of my morning walks to class. As I join the throngs of students, I always imagine myself as falling in line in that march to the sea. But I also remember that I am not an idle marcher. I've heard the voice inside my head, saying, "follow Me instead." I am in my place, but now I am marching for my maker.

Then out of the corner of my eye

I see a spaceship in the sky

And hear a voice inside my head:

Follow me instead

Then the wages of war will start

Inside my head with my counterpart

And the emotionless marchers will chant the phrase:

This line's the only way

And then I start down the sand

My eyes are focused on the end of land

But again the voice inside my head says,

Follow me instead

Take me up, seal the door

I don't want to march here anymore

I realize that this line is dead

So I'll follow You instead

So then You put me back in my place

So I might start another day

And once again I will be

In a march to the sea.

Bonus Meanings:

No one looks up anymore

'Cause you might get a raindrop in your eye

And Heaven forbid they see you cry

As we fall in line.

3. Semi-Automatic.

I was confused by it at first -- until I realized just how telling of me this song really is. I've been diagnosed with soul schizophrenia, 'cause I'm all twisted up inside. How often I do not do what I want to do, but what I hate. But, again, this condition is inescapable. Every human is born with soul schizophrenia, and we must simply do our best to live on, live on, live on.

I'm never what I like,

I'm double sided,

and I just can't hide,

I kind of like it

when I make you cry,

'Cause I'm twisted up,

I'm twisted up inside

I'm semi-automatic,

my prayer's schizophrenic,

But I'll live on;

I'll live on;

I'll live on.

4. Holding On to You.

Meanings, meanings, it is full of, which I didn't discover until I truly studied and pondered the lyrics of this song.  The part I always appreciated was the "bonus meanings" I added at the end of these lyrics, but really, the heart of this song is the following exposition of the struggle between flesh and soul. But further still than that, between soul and Maker...

I'm taking over my body,

Back in control,

no more shotty,

I bet a lot of me was lost,

T's uncrossed and I's undotted,

I fought it a lot

And it seems a lot

Like flesh is all I got,

Not anymore,

Flesh out the door,

Swat

I must've forgot,

you can't trust me,

I'm open a moment and close when you show it,

Before you know it,

I'm lost at sea,

And now that I write and think about it,

And the story unfolds,

You should take my life,

You should take my soul

You are surrounding

all my surroundings,

Sounding down the mountain range

of my left-side brain,

You are surrounding

all my surroundings,

Twisting the kaleidoscope

behind both of my eyes

And I'll be holding on to you.

Bonus meanings:

When we gonna stop with it,

Lyrics that mean nothing,

We were gifted with thought

Is it time to move our feet

To an introspective beat,

It ain't the speakers that bump hearts,

It's our hearts that make the beat.

5. Doubt.

It struck a chord within me the second time I listened to this song, when I caught the words, "I'm no good without You" -- because isn't that just the truth.  On and on the lyrics go, laying bare insecurity and uncertainty... but in between, the rambling is punctuated by a call for help, an S.O.S. begging for mercy, for strength, for love.  The daily cry of our hearts.

Scared of my own image,

Scared of my own immaturity,

Scared of my own ceiling,

Scared I'll die of uncertainty,

Fear might be the death of me,

Fear leads to anxiety,

Don't know what's inside of me

Don't forget about me,

Don't forget about me,

Even when I doubt you,

I'm no good without you,

no, no, no, no.

Temperature is dropping,

Temperature is dropping,

I'm not sure if I can

See this ever stopping,

Shaking hands with the

Dark parts of my thoughts, no,

You are all that I've got, no

Don't forget about me,

Don't forget about me,

Even when I doubt you,

I'm no good without you,

no, no, no, no.

Gnawing on the bishops,

Claw our way up their system,

Repeating simple phrases,

Someone holy insisted,

I want the markings

Made on my skin,

To mean something to me again,

Hope you haven't left without me

Hope you haven't left without me, please

Don't forget about me,

Don't forget about me,

Even when I doubt you,

I'm no good without you,

no, no, no, no.

What twenty one pilots song is your favorite/means the most to you??

4th Week - Deep in Work and Snow

Dear friends,

This week was host to a rather large milestone in my little life: the start of my first job -- my first costuming job. And it has been incredible so far. Not only is the work fun (literally just sewing for hours!!), I get to work with some wonderful people, on super cool projects. We're currently working on the final costume alterations for the production of Brigadoon that the theater department is putting on this coming weekend, which has made for a good intro for me into their workshop -- it's not too overwhelming, so I can get a feel of the workshop without too much pressure at first.

Oh guys, it's just wonderful. I think this job is the perfect introduction for me into the workforce: a fairly simple job position, in a very safe and comfortable environment. I'm so looking forward to my future in this position and the experiences I'll have. :)

Now, I'm sure I'll be telling you plenty more about my position in my university's theater department's costume shop, but, because I'm writing this post late (and I've got no good reason -- shhh), I'm going to keep it short. However, I have some pictures I'd like to share with you of today: another beautiful snow day, enjoyed with new friends, going sledding, snowboarding, and adventuring.

Until next week, my peeps.

P.S. Photo creds of the last two pics go to Russel, who borrowed my camera for a bit. ;)

A 3rd Week: In and Out of the Comfort Zone

So, to begin, some little happenings of the week within my comfort zone:

Storytelling and sewing seem to be my current lot in life, and I'm so happy for that. What can I say? It's what I love. Speaking of which, I should be working on a synopsis for screenwriting class right now (basically a 250-500 word version of the pitch I mentioned last week)... but writing this post is more fun... ;)

Now, for sewing, I've started the project I mentioned last week! I should have known better than to think that it would be put off, especially when I already have the fabric... ;D But anyway, over the week/weekend, I've begun putting together Simplicity 8014 - and it's been rather difficult, thanks to my gorgeous silky fabric. *cries*

Ahem. So, after cutting out all the pieces (which takes forever, as you know if you've sewn from a pattern before), and applying interfacing to the pieces that require it, I've only been able to get as far as completing some of the bodice (the front pockets created a bit of a roadblock). If they're not gorgeous after all the time I'm spent on them, I will be very sad.

But, all in all, this shirt dress has been an interesting piece to work on, providing me with some use for my free time (because I still haven't been able to start working my costuming job... thanks, official paperwork), as well as a bit of a sewing challenge to improve and expand my skills. Oh, and I'm super excited for the finish product, 'cause I think it'll be adorbs. ;)

Now, to finish, a little story of this week's happening outside of my comfort zone:

I got to meet the author of a wonderful book, Soul Cravings, that I read by chance only a few weeks ago: Erwin McManus. Funny thing is, I didn't know he was speaking until they introduced him. Which leads me to my little story of that experience... ;)

After McManus spoke (and what he talked about was absolutely brilliant), he was at a table set up with his newest book, The Artisan Soul, talking to students and signing books. Now, me, being the slightly shy creature I am, was nervous to go up, and so I stayed in my seat observing the interactions and working up some guts.

Because I knew if I didn't do it, I'd regret it all day.

So, after about fifteen minutes, when the line had subsided quite a bit, the holy Spirit must have given me a push because I found myself traipsing down the steps of the auditorium. Then, when it was my turn, I bought "The Artisan Soul," and then got to speak with Mr Erwin for a moment as he signed my copy. He was so nice, and was appreciative that I had read "Soul Cravings." 

I walked away clutching my new book, jubilant simply because I had "done it."

I sincerely hope I was a little bit of an encouragement to Mr McManus, because he certainly was to me. I haven't started reading "The Artisan Soul" yet because i'm currently reading seven books, but I can't wait until I can - mostly because it sounds amazing, but also because, hey, I've met the author! ;)

Now, in conclusion, friends, I have so much else I would love to share with you all if I had more time to write. So many things I've been learning, so many joyful little happenings, so many times God poured out little blessings... but alas, homework awaits and midnight approaches, so, until next week, I shall bid you all a fond farewell.

his little nose scrunch tho